I want to thank you for taking the time to read my new blog!
I am a 42 year old, twice divorced mother of four! I never thought I would be divorced, let alone twice, but believe God has a plan for me and my faith has gotten me through the most difficult time in my life.
Two weeks after my dad's funeral, my husband told me he wanted a divorce! I thought it was just part of an argument, and left it at that. Then I found out about "HER". The 20 year old (at the time) girlfriend he had. Not only that, he had my children (ages 4 and 5) lie to me about her, after they would go to the park, she would go with him to pick up my son from school.
It has taken me a long time to get over the grief and hurt, and there are still moments that I think "if only we could have.....". Then I overheard a conversation with his dad. My daughter had called me to talk to me (she is 5) about open house at school and I asked to talk to him to work out the details. He yelled at her for calling me! Then I called him back and told him not to ever yell at her for calling me again (in a very loud voice....LOL). I tried to call Hannah back on her cell (I know a 5 year old with a cell phone....but I got it for both of them so they could call me whenever they want and my ex can call them without me having to talk to him) and at the same time he called me on the main line. After I hung up I went back to the line on hold to hang it up and overheard him lying to his dad about what I said and what he really thought of me. It was a wake up call as to the lies he has been telling about me throughout the divorce process and made me realize that I can't change him....I can only change me!
A week later our divorce was final and here I am, a 42 year old, twice divorced mother of four (ages 5, 6, 21 and 23) trying to start my life over. Although I have been working on myself for the past year and a half and have made great strides, I feel that the finalization of the divorce was the opening of the door for the "new me".
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